Who am I?

I think all to often I look at myself and see all that I have not accomplished instead of all that I have. I have made excuses for myself and for not truly reaching for my goals.

I want to make a difference in every life me, yet how do I accomplish that? What is it I can do that touches people and makes them feel important? How can I make this world a better place?

I have yet to answer these questions, and I believe that to be why I am stuck. I want to see myself as others see me and sometimes I do. I just need and want to know what I my purpose is. I know faith wise, and I know He is faithful and he will answer, but in the here and now, what is the plan for Brittany Cornett's life?

A question to ponder.

I went to pick out stationary the other day, and as I stood there I was overwhelmed by the amount of choices I had before me. All sorts of cards; some cards with colors on them, some with flowers, others with funky designs, and yet still more covered with animals and words. What one fit me best? I wanted the person who received the card to know that one was definitely from me. I wanted them to know that I had chosen that card for a reason. And as I stood in the middle of this aisle with people all around me I began to wonder who I was as a person. What do people see when they look at me? Do they first see the crazy red hair (that unwillingly to me is turning a little brown. I am terrified of this by the way.) or my smile, or do they just see a young woman with love handles she is trying to cover. I was interrupted in my thought process by an older man who simply said excuse me, but that’s all it took to snap me back into the store and into the cards. As the man walked away I wondered what card he would choose and as my eyes began to dodge the racks in front of me and follow him, something caught my eye. It was a feather, those seem to be very popular at the moment, and the feather sent me soaring into my thoughts again. Who am I? Where do I want to soar to? Yet again I was interrupted, this time by a young woman, probably my age, and I thought what does she see? Where do her eyes drift in this store? Is it to the section with beautiful papers and ribbons, or the cute Portland clothes and bags, or better yet is it to the organic book section? I found that in that instant I wanted to run out of the store and find myself. I wanted to survey every person I knew and ask them what they thought of me. Do we determine who we are by others standards or is it that we truly find the things we alone find fascinating and those determine who we are?

The Plan?

Everyone else seems to have a plan, college, career, family. I don't. I have ideas of my passions, I have ideas about the type of job I want, but I just want to dabble in everything. I want to help as many people as possible and still be able to see my family on a weekly basis. I want to change the world and still see my brother and sister grow up. I want to be able to hug my Charlie and Lucy. I try and dream big, but what do I dream for? Is money the answer so I can just fly around the country and see Liz and Morgan once a week? I don't think money can be the answer but by golly it would sure help. How do I even begin to change the world? I would simply love to put a smile on every single persons face, I would love to break down peoples barriers. I would love to be able to encourage people to find who they are and love them for who they are. Maybe thats what I need to find why I love helping and encourage others to make the difference. Any ideas though?

The begining

There is some sort of a release of just writting, as I am sure we all know. One where you can simply let every emotion onto the page, where you can let everything you are feeling out. I have found that I somehow feel lost at the moment. I feel as though there is this huge world ahead of me. One where I can accomplish anything I want. Yet, I have no idea where to begin. I am so passionate about so many things how do I stop and narrow it down to one field, one job? I feel this sense of urgency to accomplish everything. To save the world. I just have no idea how to start. You know AmeriCorps was amazing. It opened so many doors and yet sometimes I feel like I cannot ever top that expierence. Where to start? Where to start?